Monday, March 31, 2008

Thailand has been a second home to me. I came here more than 3 years ago. I was only 27 years old at that time. Like most people from the Philippines, I wanted to try my luck of working abroad. I got friends who are working here as English teachers and they seem to like it here. So when I got everything ready I booked a ticket and took my first flight abroad. I left the company where I had worked for 6 years. I was a Human Resource Specialist back then. I interviewed applicants and prepared training modules for our company. It was very tiring but I had fun and enjoyed my job. At that time, jobs in Thailand were promising a very attractive salary so I had to leave the company and looked for a “greener pasture”!

It was 30th of June 2005 when the plane landed in Bangkok. I felt both excited and sad. I was excited because everything here was all new to me and sad because it was my first time to be away from my family and I was worried I wouldn’t be able to land a job here. As we get off the plane Thai flight attendants would wai to us and with big wide smiles on their faces they greeted us “Sawasdee Ka!”. True to its name, Thailand is really a land of smiles. In that moment I felt how warm and friendly Thais are. I spent my first week in Thailand traveling around Bangkok. I visited many temples and admired every temple’s architectural designs. They’re all unique and amazing!

My first teaching job in Thailand was in Bangkok. I worked in Kumon in Central Lat Phrao. The salary wasn’t what I expected but I had to accept the job as my pocket money was running out. Kumon is a tutorial center which focuses on subjects like Math and English. In here I was exposed to all levels of students. Starting from as young as 3 years old who had just started learning to utter their first English words to as old as 45 years old who thought it wasn’t too late for them to learn the language. This center was a good training ground for me to hone my teaching skills and my ability to be able to reach out to Thai students who dreaded English. I was then enjoying my job in Bangkok even with a salary that was just enough to cover for all my basic needs when I got a call from Uttaradit School offering me a job. It wasn’t that easy to leave Kumon because I wouldn’t just be leaving a job behind but what saddened me the most was leaving those students who had just started to like “English” as well as their parents who still thought that I am Thai.

I started working for Uttaradit School in April 2006. All the teachers and students made me feel that I was welcome. My co teachers were all very helpful and accommodating. They would even go beyond their way just to extend help whenever I needed one. I got countless lifts going home, free meal, free tour around the city and nearby provinces and also they would even extend financial help and moral support when needed. During the first few months of teaching in this school, I lost count of how many students had run away from me feeling so shy to greet and talk to me in English. Some would even take a different path afraid I’d stop them for a few minutes chat. But as time passed by, I felt so happy how the students have changed. Students now will most likely say, “hi” and “hello”. Some who are braver and confident in their English would stop me and start a small talk, even if it’s just a pattern like “Hi. Hello. How are you? Fine, Thank you and you?”. I felt somehow I had accomplished something when I hear my students try to speak English with me even if they’re just simple and short phrases.

It was in Thailand when I first met my husband. No, he’s not Thai. He’s Canadian. I met him on line.It was also here in Thailand where we got married. We had a beautiful wedding in Chiangmai. Our wedding coordinator did a really good job to give us a wedding to remember for the rest of our lives. It was somewhat different from the ones we had back home. It had a touch of Thai custom. We floated nine (9) fire balloons (Kom Loy). They said as we float these - all our problems, sorrows and bad luck will fly away with them. They also said that 9 is a lucky number for Thais and that floating 9 fire balloons would bring us, the new couple, abundant blessings and good luck.

Next year, I will be moving to Canada to be with my husband. Leaving Thailand would be as hard as leaving home because I had learned how to love it as my own. I had learned how to adapt and embrace its culture and traditions. I even had acquired and mastered the art of bargaining and haggling for price the same way as Thais do when they go shopping. I even look like a Thai with my black hair, skin tone and facial features. I also love Thai food. My husband and I are addicted to sticky rice (Kao Niaw) and pork with basil (Pad Ga Krapao Moo). In fact he asked me to learn how tocook Thai food before I go to Canada. And like Thai people, I also think Song Kran is the most fun filled holiday here. It is fun playing water and getting wet with people who have their water guns and big hose of water ready to splash water on you as you pass by. Oh! I will miss everything in Thailand when I leave. But for sure all the experiences I have had here as well as all the people I have met will always remain in my heart forever. All these would make me want to come back again to the place I called…….my second home!

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

A rare flower

People seem to just come and go
without noticing this flower
not even a glance was thrown at her
for they find nothing fancy in her —
color’s dull
no fragrance at all
thorns around its stem
and withered petals!

But one day
this flower chance upon a stranger
looking around…
seeking for one rare flower
that might catch his eyes
he didn’t notice her at first
but this flower, hesitant and afraid
decided to make her presence known!

With her withered petals
she stretch out and unfold her beauty
the thorns that were there began to fall off
as it brings out a fragrance, no one could resist!

The stranger looked back
at that dull color flower with withered petals
and noticed how it changed
for each time he threw his attention to her
her color is becoming bright
and seem to have life now
its fragrance has now become more solid
overpowering the fragrance of other flowers around!

That’s when he thought
he wanted this flower for himself
He gave her all his attention
watered her with much love and care
brought her the sunshine that she needs
and all like magic! —-
that dull color flower
became the brightest and the most colorful amongst all of them
that withered petals?
they’re as fresh as ever

But I have to warn the stranger
not to pick this flower
let her grow in beauty
and give out her fragrance
and then you’ll be the proudest
to ever possess this rare flower!


March 2008

That angel from above

I was up there in heaven
yet wasn’t as happy
surrounded with all the richness and beauty
but nothing would ever make me content
nor make me feel I belong there
I wander far
lost my way and chance upon this mortal
couldn’t help but admire
that one handsome face
and those eyes that seem to care
I stayed a bit
and didn’t notice the time
it was too late to fly back to heaven
so I stayed longer
hoping that he’d soon notice my presence
He was such a sight to see
that he took her breath away in an instant
his warm and sunny smile
filled this empty heart
and soon I saw myself falling for this mortal
I have gone out from heaven too long
that other angels came to take me home
but as stubborn as this angel had been
she ran away and try to hide from them
angels gave chase to her wanting her back in heaven
Sad and devastated I was taken back to heaven
spent my lonely nights there
thinking of that life I could have had with him
cried a river thinking of this love that is yet to be shown
and there I was losing all my energy and the will to live
God has taken a pity on me
asked me what I ever so wanted
but I’ve got to give up being an angel
cos I can’t be two things at the same time
and there I was flying down from heaven……. to be with you!



March 2008

Saturday, March 1, 2008

A forum reply to a post that said, "Life is unfair and it sucks!"

Why is it that people would always complain even shout at the top of their lungs ……that life has been unfair to them during the lowest points in their lives whereas when they’re at the highest and on the top they would never even care to tell the good news to everyone that life has been fair to them? WHY?

The adikz here were right in telling that it would be a matter of attitude on how you see life? If you see it that way (that life is unfair and it sucks!)— then things would fall exactly as you had perceived it to be. But if you see it in the opposite you would be surprised at how life can be so great that there are things to be happy about and be thankful. You had been blessed in life that you are only suffering this kind of pain. A lot of people had been worrying about food to put in their mouths, or a home to keep them warm at night. I had been heart broken many times and yes it did hurt but never would I complain that life sucks! Being heart broken gives you more time to assess yourself on what could have been wrong there and thus making you a better person. There are more things to worry about. And they are more important. How would you say about start focusing more on your family…how will you able to help them?….how about even for a day…start thinking about that poor kid in street who needs to ask alms so that he could feed himself…how about telling your parents how much you love them? or maybe call your friends whom you haven’t talk for a long time?

before you go to bed tonight think of 5 simple things that you have to be thankful for today. do it every night for a month. I am sure by that time you will never ever think that life is unfair and it sucks. For LIFE is the EXACT OPPOSITE of what you've said.


March 2008

I'm not giving up my happily ever after

Someone once asked me about what’s with this fairytales addiction? Then with a speed of a light I answered, fairy tales never had a sad ending! Always a "and they lived hppily ever after!"

When I was a kid, reading fairytales, sent me to another world of kings and queens, princes and princesses, spells and magic, good and evil. I grew up with a different kind of environment,rather than be sorry and feel bad about it, I allowed myself to be lost in this amazing world of fairy tales. Strange how easy life can be — help would come just in time when you need one. Magic is possible. Star dust works wonder. Characters spent a deal of crying at first but later on get their happily ever after ending, Maybe somehow and someway I was wishing that I was one of this princess and I so definitely want my happily ever after. I became that Princess who kissed the ugly frog Prince but turned out I kissed the wrong frog! It jumped into far away land, crossing mountains and seas and never came back. I became Rapunzel waited for one mighty knight to free me from the tower. He freed me but couldn’t be with me as he himself was a prisoner who couldn’t have his freedom forever. I fell in love with my poor servant, for he was always there willing and ready to protect me and never wanted to see me cry. He overprotected me and "My Lady" got choked. I left without giving him a chance to prove his worth. I was blinded by the sweet words of this Viking up North. I was asked to sky dive without a parachute for he said he would be there catching me when I fall. I hit the ground from thousands of miles up in the air. and kaboom! Hit the bottom ! couldnt even get up again. For a while, I forgot about my fairytales. I started to wander far far away. I met so many friends and they helped me get up again. I am now ready for another wait of my prince who is yet to come.

By the way, on my way back to the castle, the frog prince wanted to come back and he was disguised as my Prince Charming carrying with him my other pair of glass slipper. But this time Cinderella was no fool who could fall for anyone’s tricks. She wanted her happily ever after not just some temporary shots of ecstasy. either you give her the happily ever after now or forget about asking her to try on the glass slipper.

To the tower I went away from all scrutinizing eyes of people. Met an evil witch. But in few seconds I pricked my finger as I touched that spindle. Then off I was sent to sleep land. Cursed to sleep till her prince come to awaken her with a kiss.

Could you be this prince? Come and give her that kiss. For I wont stop writing my fairytales till I get my happily ever after ending!


March 2008