Went rushing but never came early

Looking back, I couldn't help but call my self an idiot earlier in my life. I was such in a hurry before. Wanting everything in a quickie. A quick shower, a hurried breakfast, a flash chitchat with friends, a quick this and that, and yes even a short and quick prayer! I had been so absorbed with the idea of rushing…running and being quick in everything that I do as I feared I would run out of time to do all those things. But in doing so, I overlooked some things which should have been given more importance, more time, and more of "me". I missed some good news from a friend as I didn't want to sit down for a moment to give him time to break the news. I failed to cry with a friend in his most lonesome night as I didn't have an extra minute to talk to him on the phone. My relationship with HIM didn't get closer as I kept all inside me unknown for I was watching the time and couldn't stay longer as I would be late. But late for what? Then I completely blew up my own fairy tale as I kept on turning the pages so that I can quickly get to the happily ever after part without realizing that those other chapters would have been more wonderful and exciting if only I lingered on that part for just a little while. Sad but no ones to blame. Maybe that fairy tale no matter how long we tried to keep that alive and invincible once it lose its colour and magic its gone. OH I had been rushing but never did i came early! I had been always LATE!. Guess I have to slow down this time. Take some time in what I do. Spend a more valuable time with them so that when I left all what they could remember of are those happy moments they have had with me. Hey, by the way, Im on my second chapter now of my new fairy tale. I'm not in a rush though but I cant wait to see and finally have my happy ever after ending this time. Wish me luck

May 2007