Dream lost...Love lost

Thought ours was different. Something that would last a lifetime. So many promises made…too many dreams dreamt. I really don’t know how the kind of love that we used to have will be lost in an instant. Maybe we didn’t love enough? or we cared less? or we’ve been so insensitive with each others’ dreams. I want my dream and giving me that dream would mean giving up yours. And you’re not ready for it nor am I willing to give up mine now. I had loved you too much before that I tried to keep that dream off my head. But it just can’t go on forever. The more I suppress that dream and hide it deep into my heart….my soul just stubbornly asks for it to be fulfilled. The many times you ignored and took this dream unnoticed.. the more times i feel frustrated…and I don’t like the feeling. I’ve never felt so low and unwanted in my life each time you unknowingly say you’re not ready. Perhaps you’re not aware of the signals you’ve been sending….but it did hurt…really! It feels like a throbbing pain within….so painful that I needed to command my mind to be numb and to feel nothing anymore. That’s when I stop dreaming….that’s when i stop loving you!