Rain makes me sad

Was on bed waiting for my sweet to wake up. Then it started to rain. He was still asleep. I hope he’d soon wake up. I don’t want to be alone when it rains. It brings so much pain. Was raining when dad left us. It rained too on the day of his burial. I miss him now. Miss my “tatay”. Miss him more now that the weding will be next month and he won’t be here. How I wanted for him to take me to the altar and give my hand to this man who loves me so much. I wanted him to meet my Chris for sure they would of like each other. Glad my sweet woke up. I was saved from crying and looking like Garfield again. Was back to being happy again when I saw my sweet on cam smiling at me and telling me how much he loves me. But why do time runs fast when you don’t want them to be? and they go so slow when you want them fast? My sweet left for work wasn’t able to tell him yet that it is raining and that I don’t want to be left alone. And that I’m sad cos I’m missing my dad. I wish my sweet will be home soon. I wish too that the rain will stop

{Friendster blog September 2008}